Ive changed, for the better. Im back, thankful for warm weather. But things won’t change once the weather ends, thanks to all my new friends. I wasn’t proud of who I became, standing outside in the pouring rain. Its over now, Ive left who I had become, behind. Im so glad because now I can find, the person that I want forever to be. I hope everyone likes the new me!
Archive for June, 2008
Daddy’s Little Girl
Everyone has flaws, right? Well people try to hide them, but if everyone has flaws then why hide them? I have flaws, no one is perfect, but my dad seems to like to rub them in my face. I try to stay out of his way, he is the most intimidating person I have ever met. No matter how hard I try to avoid it, we seem to constantly be at each other. I tried to talk to him, he only seems to block me out of his world, like I used to try to do to him, until I matured. Im kind of scared of him, ok Im FULLY scared. Yes, I do have him tied around my finger, I guess you could call it a LOVE – HATE relationship. I wish he would just love me, not hate me, thats what I want, kind of what I need to finish maturing, daddy’s guidance, not his puishments and yelling, his wisdom and understanding. Understanding that I really am truly sorry, and I really mean it, his understanding that I am growing up and want to try things to learn, not just be warned about the consequences. Daddy Im sorry, I wish I could take everything back that ever hurt you, hurt me , I wish I could be Daddy’s little girl once again, I wish you would understand me, but you can’t seem to figure me out, Daddy please try, try Daddy please.
something stupid
Have you ever known you where doing something wrong, but did it anyway. Did it for no reason, no explantion. Which doesn’t help your case at all, with your parents, or whomever. Well I have, and I felt so stupid, so INCREDIBLY stupid, no punishment in the world could ever teach/ help me realize what I did, except realizing and admitting my stupidity. Its hard to say what exactly was going through my mind but what ever it was went through it and the consequences were bad. I was sorry the instint it happened, I asked for forgiveness to whom it applied, I realized the consequences of my actions, no further consequence will EVER be needed. Its over, all we can do is wait, forgive and forget, and no sympathy is required. All people do stupid things, but it takes a step forward, a step of not really maturity, but of understanding/ knowledge something no one will ever understand until they experience what you have, but everything is not the same, you can never experience the same thing twice. So take these words with you, “Be careful what you do little one, because it only comes back on you and your younger brother” – a book.
